When The Music of Love Plays, My Heart Starts Pounding....

Thoughts of The Day 24/12

2010-12-24T00:14:00.000-08:00

After taking the PMR results yesterday, I was relieved and felt very happy cause I got the results that I was so desperate of. After seeing the PMR result slip, I jumped and screamed like never before. Some of my friends also got the results that they hoped for but others didn't. I feel so sad for them cause those whom I expected will get straight As for their result didn't got it. Although I was very happy, still am sad for my best friends. I hope next year my friends and I will get into the same class and face 2011 happily together. I wish all the best to my friends and hope they'll get over their disappointment. By the way, today is Christmas Eve and I wonder where will my friends celebrate. I hope they'll enjoy their holidays and not let some disappointment spoil their holidays which is coming to an end. Anyway, I wanna wish everybody Merry Christmas. =) Enjoy everybody!

Something Random

2010-12-20T08:09:00.001-08:00

Sigh, don't know what happened for all of the sudden. I don't have any mood right now. Sometimes I wished I could go back to 2009 but I still prefer 2010 and will be looking forward to 2011. Last year, 2009 was kinda fun of course I was the man in charge and I didn't over used my power right? The friends who were very close to me was Kai Lue (although he was in 2A class), Zi Jie, Kang Sheng, Eu Hui, JoVen & An Qi. These are the friends that I normally hang out with during outings and whatever it is. Hanging out with them was really fun and I still remembered the times we spent together as so called 'Family'. As time goes by, many things had happened and the bond between us became far apart I guess. I don't know why but maybe I guess what I did this year didn't showed any concerns bout the relationship we had? Never mind, Kai Lue's leaving Malaysia to S'pore so I think in the Prefectorial Board I would be kinda lonely next year. Let's see what happens next year then. Thanks to my lovely wifey that has always been by my side whenever I need her. Her concerns and company really helps getting rid of my boredom and stress. I don't know whether next year will be a better year for me. May God Bless me, my love and my friends.

Thoughts of The Day 20/12

2010-12-19T23:30:00.000-08:00

After watching The Social Network movie for so many times, I really can't get my hands off my laptop and I just have to keep writing something. By the way the movie is really great and would be nice for those who are Facebook addicts. School holidays are going to end and I'm so nervous and worried now as you know that 23rd is the releasing PMR results day. I'm still so nervous and worried bout my PMR results, I just hope that getting 8As would be my dream come true. Dear God, please bless me and my friends. Although I have lots of worries and am still worried, thanks to her because she made me relieved all my stress and get rid of the worries and nervosity. This school holiday is kinda short, it's a bit of disappointing but I'm kinda happy cause I can get to meet her soon. I miss her so much that I couldn't get my eyes off her picture. The moments we shared together throughout this year were so memorable and I just hope to get back to the moments sometimes. I don't know what's gonna happen next year but I hope to get 8As in my PMR and get into the same class as you and I just wanna be with you forever just no matter what happens nothing's gonna set us apart. My love to you is indescribable and I just wanna say I love 'Just The Way You Are' my love. =)

Thoughts of The Day 18/12

2010-12-18T10:25:00.000-08:00

What a day man, today just went to Restaurant 88 had steamboat and barbeque for dinner. It wasn't the food that made me full but the drinks and the laughers. Today was quite a memorable day for me. Hmm maybe it's because I felt so lonely after my bro left Malaysia to US for his studies again. Having him for 7 months plus was great and nice, I just hope he could finish his studies faster in US and come back to Malaysia. Then, today was the first farewell gathering for my best friend Kai Lue who's gonna leave Malaysia to S'pore for studies also. What on earth man, it seems like everybody's leaving Malaysia for studies. Today we talked and ate and enjoy for the bout like 2 hours at the restaurant. It was fun having that kinda moment especially with your best friends. This holiday actually passes kinda fast compare with last year. I don't know but I just feel that way, maybe it's because my daily routine in the school holidays are the same, facing the computer, watching television, eating, going to the malls, etc. I hope that the school holidays will be longer but I also miss my girl a lot man. These few days the news on the radio and television are like freaking people out. Some couples broke up and some guys went committing suicide and left the earth for just like that. I understand how they feel and I truly think that they shouldn't do such thing because our parents raise us with their hands and earn so much money to feed us and let us grow healthily. I feel sorry for those who broke up but I certainly hope that they will look forward for a better future. Yesterday I came across with a news that 23rd of Dec will be the releasing PMR results day, so I am kinda nervous and worried for my results because I really hope that I can get 8As for my PMR. Because of that I can barely sleep at night and keep thinking bout it while doing something else in the day. May God Bless me and my friends. Let's hope for the best and will post something new after the releasing PMR results day. =)

New Post? PMR?

2010-08-01T05:48:00.000-07:00

Ah. Here comes me again from me again appearing out of nowhere trying to post something out here causes my friend Weng Jiu aka Maknae told me to write a blog which he really doesn't know that I already had one. =) After letting him see my blog, he kept commenting that my blog is so dead in a sense of details in my post. LOL!!! Oh man, that was long time ago alright? Read it or leave! That's what I told him haha. Argh, PMR is coming and left bout 8 more weeks? That's freaking stressful man. Anyway I gotta face it sooner or later right? So please chill. My bro always say that PMR is easy but if you didn't really revise or do exercises, you might actually find it pretty hard. Of course, nothing comes easy right? I wonder why there are lots of questions in my head that are unsolved. I kinda like cried every single night, literally. LOL. If Weng Jiu sees this, he might say ''Tuck, you're so gay! or so sissy?" but I'm gonna say ''Dude, accept me for who I am". Ish, gotta do my work first, will write more post in the future but you won't notice if you don't often check my blog. =) So feel free to check okay? Buhbye and take care guys!

Hatred...

2009-12-01T16:56:00.001-08:00

I hate myself...I'm sure I really hate myself a lot...can't believe it right? Cause I can't believe for what I've done...will that affect our relationship? I don't know yet...but I'm sorry and I love you....sigh...for so long you've treated me very good....nobody have ever treated me so good like you before..but I just treat you just isn't good enough...why is this happening? I just hope that there'll be no blockage between us two...just happiness....perhaps I'm too playful and I guess I over reached it...sigh...I'm sorry.....I didn't mean to say those words....I thought you wouldn't take those things seriously but I guess you did....there's nothing wrong bout you...you're not sensitive...it's me....maybe I should change if you're willing to give me a change...apart from that....I still hate myself...sigh...I'm sorry...I don't know that how many times must I apologize to be forgiven...of course I don't want my mistakes to be covered but I just don't know what else can I do besides saying SORRY...sigh...it's a terrible night...I can't believe I fell asleep for the fifth time as you said...will you give me another chance? The chance is my only hope...will you give it to me? God knows I suck...I'm not a good guy either....just one piece junk that always do wrong stuff...sigh....but I just can't stop saying this...I love you

Sadness & Memories Intertwined

2009-11-16T05:59:00.000-08:00

Sigh, today, 16 of November 2009, is the day which all of my classmates are gonna separate or some will not be separated. I miss all my friends a lot cause when I faced school works prob or other probs that have got to do with my class, they'll help me no matter what it takes to sacrifice, of course, my beloved wifey also did help me a lot ^^. Next year, it's a year which everything changes, maybe or maybe not? It's unpredictable. I just hope that next year will be as fun as this year but it's impossible cause we're gonna face PMR examination. My class, 2C, is a class where you can find lots of excitement, enjoyment, etc. This class consider as the class which rocks the most in the form 2 year of 2009, it's better than Genting Highlands although everybody says that Genting Highlands is the City of Entertainment, no offense for those people who loves Genting Highlands a lot =X. Today my classmates and I had pizza, woohoo!!! Although I had bout 2 to 3 pieces, which is not enough for me =P, I enjoyed watching my friends and teachers eating pizza!!! Now, I just wanna go back to my classroom T.T I miss the place where I sit, my classroom got lots of memories, not only with my classmates but also with my wifey ^^. My classmates and I did lots of stuff together, of course there're sad and happy moments. But all the sad moments are already passed. Trying to remember how much fun we had together and chit-chatting with friends while teacher was teaching =P. Although sometimes among ourselves we did lots of arguments, we still forgive each one another. Most of memories, we're very active in organizing parties at Kang Sheng's house, Ke Qian's house and Sheng Yin's house. Those parties brought everybody lots of memories and enjoyments. If you're one of 2C students, you'll know how it feels like to have a family in secondary school / high school. Maybe some of you cried after reading this but I really can't help it cause 2C class got lots of memories that couldn't be forgotten. I love my beloved wifey, I love my friends and I love 2C!!! ♥

Sad T^T

2009-11-05T08:43:00.000-08:00

What a day!!! Although gained good results for exam, our friends didn't get good results as we expected, so we'll be facing a hard time together because friends help each other. Today already happened lots of things, I hope these kinda things won't happen tomorrow or in the future, cause this feeling sucks!!! I thought everything would be fine, but my thought had disappoint me badly. Sigh, today, my dearest sweetheart is so unhappy, makes me feel upset as well. I thought I could accompany her during PJ lessons, but it turns out to be opposite, I really don't like this feeling, cause I only have bout 1 or 2 weeks to spend time with her before holiday starts. Tomorrow??? I hope everything would be fine as well, other wise I really don't know what's the point for me to live with this kinda feeling I'm having everyday. I really love her, although I face lots of blockage, I could sacrifice everything just to solve it and to make my dearest, beloved sweetheart to be happy. I really had a bad day today, my friends were upset with their exam results, my sweetheart got no mood. What bout me??? Of course will be unhappy as well, if it turn out that you're me, you'd regret. Regret??? For what??? Regret for not doing everything right!!! Stupid damn me, everything is supposed to fine, but now??? It's a piece of shit!!! DAMN! I can't believe that I'm saying all these stuff, I really couldn't bear my friends and my most beloved sweetheart having these kinda feeling. I'm so helpless cause everything that had happened had past!!! GOD!!! Please help me, I just want my friends and my love ones to be happy, I wouldn't mind if you'll take my soul away.

Freedom!!!

2009-11-04T08:57:00.000-08:00

Woohoo...my fellow buddies....haha...exam is finally over!! Seriously, I wanna get 7 or 8 As for this term examination. One thing disappoints me is that the year of form 2 is gonna end...sigh..my class 2C, really rocks the whole year!!! I can't imagine how am I gonna live if I'm not in 2C, not just cause of 2C, I'd be lonely without my sweetheart and class 2C. This year, 2009, is consider the best year that I've ever been through before...now exam had already passed and what's coming up next? HOLIDAAAAYY!!! This sounds fun to everybody but to me...it's not as exciting as it sounds...because 2009 is gonna over and 2010 is coming up and that makes me sick!!! If God gives me a chance to choose between year 2009 and 2010, I would rather choose 2009 than 2010. If you're in the same situation as I, you'll know why I would choose 2009. I love 2C!!! I love my sweetheart!!! I love my friends!!! Sigh...I'm gonna cry out...2009 really rocks!!! I love this year...really do....next year I'll be facing PMR with my fellow friends....er-hmmm....please don't talk bout any exam already! Sorry haha...=.=... I hope that my friends in 2C and I will have a lasting relationship forever...and I hope that my relationship with my sweetheart will last as long as possible...no matter what problems come up, I will face it with her...this sounds sweet haha..=) Now I'm waiting for my exam's results and waiting the time to pass slowly...hehe...my fellow friends...please do keep in touch with me in the future!!! =D HOLIDAAAY, I can't celebrate Christmas with my dearest, closest brother whom is now in US studying...T.T I miss him a lot since the day he went ( 2nd of August, 2009.) I hope that my class will have another party before form 3 year starts haha....I love my 2C friends and also not to be forgotten my most beloved sweetheart hehe...=) Okay I guess it's time to stop, take care everybody good night, sweet dreams and enjoy!!! Chaoz chaoz...

P.S. Love my friends and my SWEETHEART!!!! Muackx muackx =D

Disappointment...

2009-10-25T10:05:00.000-07:00

Haih..very disappointed with my Science...all because of the stupid teacher!!! Gave so many tough questions...like as though we are genius..=.= Anyway how...I tried to aim for the best...aim for more goals...I hope I can at least get 7As so that I won't let my parents down...and just wanna maintain my grades as well. Anyhow, I'm still quite afraid of my coming exams...but I kept on telling myself...no fear can take you down!!! Stay strong and alert then everything will be as fine as usual. I hope my senses are correct. After exam, I'll most probably be out for fun of course!! And accompanying her? Sure!! Haha...can't live a day without her man...without her today..there wont be a day tomorrow...=) Miss her so much!!! Muackx!!!!

Exam...

2009-10-18T08:03:00.000-07:00

Exam is a nightmare, nightmare is exam. =.= Just wish that I could finish my revision on time and get good results for my last term examination. Aim? Target? 7 - 9 As if possible. Class? Hmm hoping to go to 3B next year or maintain my C class!!! Anyway good luck to myself and good luck to my friends and my love one. =) After exam is gonna be free~ my plan had already prepared, so work hard for my exam and all the best to myself and every Kwang Hua students who will be taking for exam in a few days time. Haha I hope my friends will give me your support. Please do leave me a comment if you wanna support me ;) thanks.

Suffocating in the nature...

2009-10-13T10:39:00.000-07:00

Changes can be made to a person. Just like me, just don't wanna have a nightmare every night, so scary, afraid, lonely, nothing can be done. Meeting her is one of the good thing that had happened to me, being with her is the best that that had happened to me, making her sad is the stupid thing that I've done, making her to be happy sometimes it's hard and sometimes it's very hard. When you say you wanna do something, you better do it right, don't let any mistakes happen if you can prevent it from happening. Everybody has a wish, and the wishes can be important or unimportant. Actually I've got two wishes in my heart, first wish is to be with her happily and healthily. The second one right, I wish that my family can live happily and healthily no matter what happens. Both of them are very important and special to me. I don't know what had happened to me, I hope I can be myself again cause now I'm not myself, seriously. At night, I kept thinking bout the mistakes that I've done, good memories too. Feel sorry and helpless.

P.S. I love her always.

What's going on?!

2009-10-11T12:16:00.000-07:00

Tim!! Tim!! Wake up!! What the hell is going on man? What am I doing at this time? 3.17am?! I thought you should be bed by now? Anyway, I just wanna express my feeling right here, right now. After finishing two Malay essays that were given by my Malay tuition teacher, I was so happy? You should be kidding right? 3 pages fully written with points essay, that was the first longest essay I think that I've been written since I was in Pri school man! What a surprise huh? Okay now, straight to the point. I don't really feel good right now man, why is that? Haha not cause of anybody but me. I guess I've changed man, not to good but to bad I guess? Keep scolding myself man, I think you couldn't even believe that I've changed since for so long. The way I've treated my sweetie was I think moderate I guess, I could still be better. I hope I can be a better man/guy, just don't wanna be a lazy, untrustable, useless, stupid guy, that's all for me. Today I think is consider one of the worst day in my life. This feeling is like no others, I feel so sorry man, very sorry for her. What did you say? Yea, I mean it, I feel sorry for her. I feel that I've been giving lots of pressure to her man. This sucks man, I didn't mean to treat her that way, I just wanted her to be happy and being joyful as long as she is with me. This is what I am feeling but I don't know whether how did I treat her all this long. But I can tell I really love her, just as God loves everybody but seriously, I love my sweetie more than God loves everybody =X Sorry no offense huh! I really do love her a lot, as you can tell through what you see. I feel a lot better after typing out this whole thing man! Anyway, sweetie, Sorry, I love you. Till then, chaoz~